When I Was Ten …

The child has few memories, so those he has are detailed.

We were in my hometown for some reason one summer Sunday afternoon a couple years ago and I said to my girlfriend that I wanted to show her where I grew up. (As if adulthood is a condition I suffer from or enjoy.) We drove down roads I used to bike on, walk on.

I grew up in the suburbs, in upstate New York, in the 1970s and ’80s, a neighborhood without sidewalks, where kids biked across their neighbors’ lawns (well, I did) without fear of criticism. (Well, I wasn’t.) I remember that I knew which houses had dogs that were poorly restrained (so I could avoid those lawns or else find a new speed in my pumping little legs) and which houses were simply scary for reasons no one could explain but everyone knew which houses simply seemed scary.

(Years later, in high school, I was fundraising or campaigning for something and I dared, out of my OCD-ish sense/need to knock on every single door in the neighborhood, in their order of appearance, I knocked on the door of one of the houses that I always thought was scary. The owner was as friendly and nice as could be. I felt like I had discovered something.)

Jen and I drove down a road I biked on every day some thirty-five years ago, a road lined with trees (“The Woods“) whose branches now are meeting above it, which must keep it in permanent shade and a continuous risk of electrical outages, and which renders it even more spooky than it was every Halloween, when I would walk it in costume to leave my neighborhood and visit the next one over.

I did not know when I was ten years old that I was memorizing these roads, their very surface. I recognized a kid-created access point into The Woods. (Was it the steepest point on the hillside? Yes, for reasons that are clothes-ruiningly obvious to me now.)

Jen and I turned left onto the street I spent the first eighteen years of my life, and there it was: “my” home, but painted the wrong color and sporting a new garage door and a driveway overhang that defined the phrase “out of place,” because it was not there when I lived there and it was “my” home. But I didn’t notice what was different at first. No, at first, I gasped.

Jen heard it. I sometimes forget in my relatively simple life that gasping is an actual thing that real people with real hearts do. I gasped. It had been decades since I had been in front of this building. Every image my brain could offer me was tossed into a memory salad: which window was my room, a rock I always avoided with the lawn mower (or sometimes hit, just because), which trees had grown, by how much, every single blade of grass. I said something about how my name is all over the inside of that building, because that was the first thing my brain offered with words that I could speak out loud to Jen and because it is literally true: I was a possessive kid and I wrote my name on sheet rock (and I sometimes exposed it to do so) and hidden spots on wooden beams throughout the house. In the basement. Inside closets. The attic. (To the residents of 4 Sheraton Drive, I’m sorry.) (Another thing: yes, I am aware that there is a connection between the number 4 being my secret favorite lucky number and my first street address.)

At the top of my road sits my elementary school, another building that may have my name written on a surface inside it, as I was the sort of kid who won awards in school. It was summer and we walked on its grounds. How could my brain retain that this one, this one particular jungle gym was the one that I always climbed, and that the other, identical, jungle gym on the same patch of yard a couple of feet away was the one that I only climbed when mine was occupied? But there it was. There it is. I stepped onto a lower rung. It was as if I had had no other life.

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This first appeared in 2015.

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  1. Martha Kennedy · January 25, 2017

    Yep. I haven’t gone back “home”… But once I google-earthed the place — woods — where my brother and I played and sledded. I knew the trails as well as I had at age 10. I knew exactly where they were and where they went. They seem to have engraved themselves in my soul. ❤


  2. Anton Wills-Eve · January 25, 2017

    that was lovely Mark. Such encounters with former innocence are the first hints of approaching middle age. But they must be cherished 🙂 Anton

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    • Mark Aldrich · January 25, 2017

      Approaching? Heh. You’re a great optimist. Thank you, Anton, for being in my day. Mark


  3. Itching for Hitching · January 26, 2017

    Childhood memories are so powerful aren’t they? I find myself drawn back to the old haunts often. If the memories are of good times I think that the older we get the more we are dragged back to ‘visit’.

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