One-Way Flight, No Layovers

I never looked for his book online or in a bookstore. He showed it to me, or he showed me a galley proof of it. And now, a decade later, I do not remember his name or enough about the book to find out whatever happened to him or it.

The two of us were passengers on a plane, and 98% of my personal air travel history dates from the years 2000 to 2004, when I moved from upstate New York to Cedar Rapids, Iowa, and twice a year I returned home for holiday visits. The typical route was Eastern Iowa Airport to Cincinnati/Northern Kentucky International Airport to Stewart International Airport (or sometimes Logan in Boston), because there are no direct flights between Iowa and anyplace else I have ever lived. The book author was across the aisle from me.

Sometimes I am a tense passenger, one of those who grips the armrests so tightly that I may as well finish the job and break them off, pocket them, and carry them home as souvenirs. But sometimes I am almost relaxed and almost human.

Air travel offers an intensification of experience; one deals with emotions not often felt on the ground, from the fear of permanent change to the excitement of temporary reunions. For me, it has not yet become a natural mode of transportation like being in a car or a train.

I have experienced emotions in planes and in airports that I have not encountered elsewhere in my life. Once upon a time, I realized that I had fallen in love with someone 60 seconds too late in an airport. More correctly, I think that the thought crossed my mind that I ought to have gotten the phone number of the woman with whom I had been chatting from Boston to O’Hare, a two-and-a-half-hour flight. (She looked like Sandra Bullock.)

When she and I parted, when she said she was heading to her next terminal and I realized that I was already at mine, we gave each other a look I have not seen since. It wasn’t a broken-hearted gaze exactly, but it was leasing a condo in heartbroken’s neighborhood. After all, we had enjoyed talking with each other nonstop and now our time together was permanently over, which is an awful lot like forever … and we both knew it, unless one of us would simply say or do … something. That was the look. Neither one of us did anything. It was a stare for a moment that two people who had proved themselves glib and witty did not have words for.

I almost missed my next flight in indecisively wandering around O’Hare while debating whether I should run after her “just like in a movie” to the terminal that I thought was the one she had told me her next flight was leaving from. (If you do not know this, O’Hare is too large an airport to be indecisive in.) The quotation marks around “‘just like in a movie’” were quotation marks in my mind even then, which is a good indication that my indecision was not regretted, not really, even in the moment.

(In the life I live now, any so-called missed opportunities are now perceived as having been opportunities themselves. Each one was the opportunity to live the life I now have, and the fact that I sometimes at random moments say “Thank you” to my girlfriend and she gets a quizzical look on her face and asks, “For what?” maybe says something about this. I did not treat my opportunity to see Jen again “just like in a movie.” It was better than any movie.)

The book author across the aisle from me first attracted my attention because he was reading the “9/11 Commission Report,” which had just been published and which did not strike me as an enjoyable in-flight time-waster. (My personal in-flight reading is forever limited to happy stories of enjoyable things that happen to contented people on the secure ground, ground that is described clearly and with a lot of detail about how it rests under sunny skies and nowhere near cliffs, volcanoes, or airports.) He replied to my glance at the book cover with a statement-question: “I want to learn everything I can, right?”

I nodded with no change in my facial expression at this. “I’m a student and I study everything,” he added. I looked out my window.

There was only sky out that window and there was only ground out his window across from me, which is a vehicular angle that planes often hit that buses and cars and trains do not—not without trouble, anyway—a common in-flight experience that I happen to vertiginously detest, so I made the snap decision to completely enjoy this one-sided conversation with the self-declared student-of-everything-who-studies-it-all. I was only going to look at him, with nary a glance at his book, until we landed.

He was young, bearded, an earnest hipster a couple years before this was a thing. Perhaps he was the very very first. He was as serious as those who believe things are serious can be. Gosh, he was unrelenting. Just what I needed in a moment of panic.

Pages materialized out of a briefcase. “I’m a writer,” he told me. “With a book coming out.” On the pages were poems. Well, they looked like poems; there was a lot of white space around them. He watched my eyes as they moved across each line and down the page. I exaggerated the movement of my eyes to look like a cartoon typewriter. “Ding!”

He did not offer a second page until he could confirm that I had consumed the first. They were poems. Indeed. Each poem was loudly violent, with “eyes unseeing” and “pleas rejected.” They could not have been less interesting. For me in that moment, they were perfect. And they were being published in a book with an actual price on a real cover–which was another sheet he made sure to show me, the proof sheet of the cover.

Perhaps the fact of his imminent publication did it. I got a little jealous. I found myself in the psychological and social trap of trying to include myself in someone else’s monologue. With him not asking me anything about me, I informed him that I was a writer, as well, which at the time I was: a professional technical writer. He nodded with no change in his facial expression at this and not a pause in his monologue and then told me about his publisher’s plans for his poems.

My one sentence, “I’m from New York but I live in Iowa now,” yielded five sentences of his ongoing explanation about how Capital L “Life” works and why people do not understand the importance of it all. Five to one was the ratio through the entire conversation. I have the sneaking suspicion that, as with Ms. Sandra Bullock of O’Hare Airport, I remember more about the encounter with Mr. Across-the-Aisle than he does.

I no longer feel the defensive need to insert myself in other peoples’ monologues when I am near them.

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This is a rewrite of “In-Flight Reading,” from August.

The WordPress Daily Prompt for December 10 asks, “You’re on a long flight, and a palm reader sitting next to you insists she reads your palm. You hesitate, but agree. What does she tell you?”

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  1. bethbyrnes · December 11, 2015

    Mark, I love the idea of blurting out: ‘I’m-from-New-York-” … etc., etc. I do that after 20 years in California, still. As for airplanes. The minute I get on, I put myself into an altered state: mask, headphones with sitar music and pretend I am in my family room at home until the ordeal is over and I am safely on terra firma. I love your blog!

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  2. abodyofhope · December 13, 2015

    You are such a wonderful writer, Mark! I laughed throughout the piece.
    There were so many fabulous lines; thank you for taking us on the trip with you.

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