A Valentine’s Tale

I bear a scar from the first Valentine’s Day that I had a reason to celebrate as Valentine’s Day, as a part of a couple. Until my current relationship, my romantic history was a long walk alone in an empty field, punctuated by moments in which I interrupted someone else’s walk, attempted to try a relationship, and discovered that I try people’s patience instead. (All the women I have dated are brilliant and accomplished, and I was lucky to get to know them; I was stuck at age 15 for an astonishingly long time, however.)

My love right now, my soul mate, Jen, is quite brilliant and accomplished, and for the first time in my life, almost three years now, I am an equal partner and have opened myself up to having an equal partner. Not too bad for a 46-year-old 15-year-old.

Valentine’s Day 1989, 26 years ago today, I was dressed up for the GQ cover that sat only in my mind. For the first time, I was not the friend without a date, I was dating someone, a fellow college student. She and I had not yet kissed, and yes that means I was 20 and still a virgin, but yes I had a date, and you know, why are you mathing up my life? It was probably more important to me that I was dating at all than who I was dating or the concept that they might have an inner life that I could have an effect on, too.

Sadly, the only part of a GQ look that I could actually afford was a copy of GQ, so the only thing neatly pressed was whatever was beneath that Bible-thick copy of GQ in my backpack. The blazer: the only one I owned. A Herringbone, a three-button gray Herringbone from one of the finer Montgomery Ward lines, with one button elegantly worried loose through years of nervous playing with it. At least one size too large. The pants: black, “dress pants,” creased, because that’s how they came and even age could not uncrease them. The tie: I am wearing a tie and isn’t that enough? The shoes: the only dress shoes I had ever owned, which I had outgrown, and which no longer had rubber on their soles.

These shoes proved to be my Achilles’ heel. In my desire to get my debonair look as nervously “right” as anxiously possible, I wound up running late for my classes. So I drove to school dressed for that night’s Valentine, arrived in my classroom building just in time for class, strode out of the elevator onto the freshly waxed linoleum, and fell hard. Everything on my person landed in a perfect 360 degrees around me. I did not know I had 360 things on me, but I did. I looked like I had been dropped from a very great height and crashed through the building’s roof. It was as if every wish I had made in childhood for a hole in the ground to open up and rescue me had been answered in reverse.

I had landed on my mouth. To this day, when I tell this story, I can not demonstrate how it is possible that slipping on my elderly right shoe’s rubber-less heel could pitch me face-forward, but it did. I will spare the graphic details. I was not rushed to a hospital or doctor’s office, a cab was called for me instead and we drove to an ER. The leisurely pace in reaction to my wildly injured face still perplexes me.

The cab did not wait for me, so with my lip stitched up—which is the scar that remains to this day—I walked across the highway back to campus, thus adding a layer of dust to my ensemble, with one single thought in my mind: to not run into anyone I know, to get to my car, which as a commuter student was my dorm room, and clean up as best I could. To not run into anyone I know, like, say, my date for that night. Of course, upon thinking this thought, the first person I saw on campus—an entire college campus!—was my date.

We had a lovely dinner-and-a-movie evening. Our first kiss remained in the future, for obvious reasons.

I will not go into any further romantic details about the intervening decades, but until now I have not come close to what I have now and it takes every damn day and night of dumb work through two-plus decades to accomplish that.

But I am now one of those lucky many who has experienced love at first sight. And I know it is unique for each person who has experienced this. Three years ago, the moment I saw my love, Jen, a thought passed through my mind, just on the other side of being words, just a flicker of a thought: “She is going to be important to me.” That was all. I had no clue what any of it meant—”important” could have been anything; she could have lent me a five and that would have been pretty important to me at that time. But I knew that it was going to be a bigger story than that. “Important” is too small a word for what happened.

Every day since she said yes to me, she redefines “important.” One could insert the words, “Dear Jen,” at the top of everything I write. Today is my favorite Valentine’s Day. I love you, Jen.

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(This is a updated and re-written version of a column from February 14, 2014, when this web site was brand new.)

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10 comments

  1. thereluctantbaptist · February 14, 2015

    I love the sentiment of this post, and it has lots of great sentences, too. I especially love this:
    “Until my current relationship, my romantic history was a long walk alone in an empty field, punctuated by moments in which I interrupted someone else’s walk..”
    and this:
    “and you know, why are you mathing up my life?”
    and this:
    “It was probably more important to me that I was dating at all than who I was dating or the concept that they might have an inner life that I could have an effect on, too.”
    and ha,ha, this:
    “In my desire to get my debonair look as nervously “right” as anxiously possible…”

    Liked by 1 person

  2. livingonchi · February 14, 2015

    What an endearing post! I love you too, Jen! ❤

    Liked by 1 person

  3. Leigh W. Smith · February 14, 2015

    Sweet story, Mark–and nicely conveyed. I love the microscopic details this is packed with: the thick GQ magazine, “worried”-free button, and sole-bared shoes, just to name a few. A worthy tribute to this Jen, I’d humbly say.

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  4. macbofisbil · February 15, 2015

    Wonderful. You’re lucky to have someone you truly love in your life.

    Liked by 1 person

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